The Power of Faith

What to say.

I don't know. I just wish that this quarter was over. I don't like my classes really (except for Hip Hop Theater). I've lost my drive and ambition for this quarter. I have no desire to be on campus or in class, for that matter. The only thing that's keeping me there is the fact that I want to graduate and show everyone (myself included) that I can do this. I know that I doubt myself everyday I get up in the morning that I can't do this. And each day I pray to God to help me stay focused on Him and He will guide me in the direction that I should go. I know that He is up there helping me with this mess called school. I am so stressed out and my shoulders are killing me every single day. Faith is a powerful tool. Faith is what got me here to UCR. I prayed day after day for God to get me into a school so I could get my degree. I knew that in His time I would be here at this point. With prayer, it happened. I was feeling very distant from God, but I am making my way back to Him. Prayer, meditation and devotions are bringing me back since I am not able to get to church on Sundays. It's my way of connecting to God, which I so desperately need. I need the connection and the calm and level head right now. I am psyching myself out and I know that it's all in my head. *sigh* The Lord will guide me...I have faith.

So, this is my PSA for practicing faith. Do it, because it does help and keeps you centered. If you so desire not to practice a specific faith, just be a spiritual person. Be connected to yourself and not so distant. Stay focused on a higher power that helps you.

If you would like more information on faith and spirituality, please copy and paste this website:
http://www.faith.com

[I still don't have a closing phrase]

The end of INTIMATE APPAREL

Well folks. Today marks the end of the one and only INTIMATE APPAREL. It was such a pleasure to be a part of it. I just want to take this time to thank the entire cast and crew and director and production staff for such a wonderful show. It was a blast, and I'm kind of bittersweet about the whole thing. I have so many wonderful things to say to the cast of the show. I am trying to decide how and if I want to say it all right here.

Hmmm...

Too many words, not enough will. Hahaa.

However, I will post the pictures.


Amy Wright (Esther Mills)


Rinata Krel (Mrs. Van Buren)


LaShe Rodriguez (Mayme)


Aaron Carew (George Armstrong)


[Christopher] Jordan Mackey (Mr. Marks)
In other news, I have been trying to keep up with my hair. The hairspray that I used during the show did a NUMBER on my hair. I'm so glad that the shampoo and coconut oil revitalized my hair. I feel like a whole new person! I am enthralled with the condition of my hair. It is so moisturized! Hahaa.

I have posted videos on youtube, so please check them out!

http://www.youtube.com/user/kneegroe03

What's your catch phrase?

Mid-week madness

Today didn't start out as I had hoped. I didn't go to bed until 1:30 this morning and was supposed to get up at 6:30, but I was so wiped out that I didn't get up at that time. I had to work at 8 and guess what time I woke up? I bet you're thinking that it was after 8, but I did not. I got up at around 7:30 and the only saving grace was that I showered before I went to sleep! Whew! But what I wanted to do was get up and eat breakfast before work and also pack myself lunch since I was going to be on campus from 8a-3p. Needless to say, lunch did not get made, nor was breakfast consumed. I woke up feeling like someone put things over my eyes and I wasn't quite aware of what I was doing. So, I left for work in a rush with a rumble in my stomach and the desire for a double shot of espresso. I rarely have espresso straight up, but there was no way I could stand on my feet for 4 hours and do work without some sort of stimulant.

Though the morning was a bit of a struggle, the day turned out to be really great! For starters, I had Hip Hop Theatre today and that class is totally something else. My professor is so funny! Our assignment for today was to pick an element of Hip Hop culture and take on the element. We then had to choose a name and give a sample of our element. The choices were Beatboxing, DJing, Graffiti or Breakdancing. I chose Beatboxing and my name would be J-fikki-dizzle. It was awesome. The whole class had to do something and some of them were HOT and others were quite freaky. Two guys are very interested in the devil and 666 and murder and dark things of that nature. Most of the people in the class were bothered by this, as was I. I am all for people who like to do their own thing against the norm, but that was just plain freaky. If you think about it, we have a class of about 50 people, some of whom are black and religious like I am, so I know the weird feeling that you get from it.

And the day got even better! Intimate Apparel rehearsal was fabulous. We are finally getting a hold on what we're supposed to be doing. We are realizing what our characters are actually saying and meaning and now are internalizing the words and feeling what we're saying. The only bad thing about tonight's rehearsal was the fact that I kept second guessing myself. I start saying the lines and then when I think I'm not right, I call for line and it turns out that I am right. I have to learn to stop second-guessing myself. Kathy, the director, even told us this: we have to trust ourselves.

With that being said, I leave you with that message. In our daily lives and throughout everything that we do, we must learn to trust ourselves. Because if we second-guess ourselves, we just create headaches. Sometimes, we're meant to have headaches in order to learn not to be so hard on ourselves, but it's life. These experiences are what make us human and that's okay. We may make mistakes, but we have to learn. We are our teachers.

Peace and Love...