Mid-week madness

Today didn't start out as I had hoped. I didn't go to bed until 1:30 this morning and was supposed to get up at 6:30, but I was so wiped out that I didn't get up at that time. I had to work at 8 and guess what time I woke up? I bet you're thinking that it was after 8, but I did not. I got up at around 7:30 and the only saving grace was that I showered before I went to sleep! Whew! But what I wanted to do was get up and eat breakfast before work and also pack myself lunch since I was going to be on campus from 8a-3p. Needless to say, lunch did not get made, nor was breakfast consumed. I woke up feeling like someone put things over my eyes and I wasn't quite aware of what I was doing. So, I left for work in a rush with a rumble in my stomach and the desire for a double shot of espresso. I rarely have espresso straight up, but there was no way I could stand on my feet for 4 hours and do work without some sort of stimulant.

Though the morning was a bit of a struggle, the day turned out to be really great! For starters, I had Hip Hop Theatre today and that class is totally something else. My professor is so funny! Our assignment for today was to pick an element of Hip Hop culture and take on the element. We then had to choose a name and give a sample of our element. The choices were Beatboxing, DJing, Graffiti or Breakdancing. I chose Beatboxing and my name would be J-fikki-dizzle. It was awesome. The whole class had to do something and some of them were HOT and others were quite freaky. Two guys are very interested in the devil and 666 and murder and dark things of that nature. Most of the people in the class were bothered by this, as was I. I am all for people who like to do their own thing against the norm, but that was just plain freaky. If you think about it, we have a class of about 50 people, some of whom are black and religious like I am, so I know the weird feeling that you get from it.

And the day got even better! Intimate Apparel rehearsal was fabulous. We are finally getting a hold on what we're supposed to be doing. We are realizing what our characters are actually saying and meaning and now are internalizing the words and feeling what we're saying. The only bad thing about tonight's rehearsal was the fact that I kept second guessing myself. I start saying the lines and then when I think I'm not right, I call for line and it turns out that I am right. I have to learn to stop second-guessing myself. Kathy, the director, even told us this: we have to trust ourselves.

With that being said, I leave you with that message. In our daily lives and throughout everything that we do, we must learn to trust ourselves. Because if we second-guess ourselves, we just create headaches. Sometimes, we're meant to have headaches in order to learn not to be so hard on ourselves, but it's life. These experiences are what make us human and that's okay. We may make mistakes, but we have to learn. We are our teachers.

Peace and Love...